It was september, I just came back from a month’s vacation in the south of France and I could not figure out how to start.. anything. My studio felt empty and foreign (even though it really wasn’t) and I needed to find some motivation, something to hold onto while I got myself together. I had a deadline to catch after all.

I knew just the thing. I had been wanting to really capture my life as an artist before, but it always felt so daunting. Filming myself everyday? Talking to a camera every day? I have some boring days I can tell you, and I also didn’t feel like ‘fixing’ my face everyday. No if I was doing this it would have to be unfiltered and raw. Get my phone out for those off days and record without a microphone, shitty sound and all, but at least it’d be authentic.

In the 298 edited minutes I filmed and shared you’ll find rejection, excitement, overwhelm, inspiration and lots of other emotions I forgot I had but found again while editing the hours away on my computer. Ten weeks in my life as an artist.

Filmed from september - november while making my show ‘I dreamt of expanding’.